The best way i can illustrate it is that I had a broken leg...lolz which healed but I didnt want to let go of my crutchs. ANd God like the awesome father he is was telling me its okay I can walk! But I was telling God I knew better. I was soo convinced that I couldnt walk with out the cruthchs that I threw a tantrum at God and acted like i was running away..like any five year old expecting my dad to come running and make the situation all about me. But he never stopped loving and waiting on me. Nd when we talked to me he finally helped me to realize i dont need the crutchs and i can walk. So I got up on my two feet and walked. And when i started walking again. I started to rejoice in my freedom and had to tell all of yall =) And ever since i have been holding Gods hand and just giving God the biggest hug ever and sitting in reverence. And basically let go of all the preconsieved ideas i had about God and gettting a chance to re-learn his character
I think another big reason i wasnt growing was because i kept putting Gods power in the past or in the future
when i was putting his power in the past i would say:
"God why dont you ever talk to me like you use to? I want my walk to be how it was in the first three months when i was sooooo close to you. And heard you voice so clear"
When i was putting his power in the future i would say:
"One day I will go hard for God! Nd he will make me into the best walking bill board for christ i can be. ONE day!"
But I needed to Know that God can step in NOW.
God can move mountains NOW!
He can part the Red sea NOW!
Soo I am still hyype! Getting closer daily and making descions that will help me to grow rather then get knocked down