God help me...my heart is beating so fast..A lot of you know i was gay for a while...nd as crazy as that was. I have begun to get my life together...but i am scared to the point of crazyness right now. Because one of "friends" told me that Someone had posted a video that i made on facebook. And I thought i had put that video on private.
Nd the video was slideshow of pictures its all pg-13 but she says that people from my class and tenth graders have commented on the video
mind you that i made the video at a time where my state of mind was not godly...so now im wondering what i am going to do come september...? I have to explain this...and unfourtanitly i go to a verrry small school.
And its not a big deal that my reputation get blown because i dont have many people at h.s i would call FRIENDS
but damn! I just dont want to make christ look bad..nd the sad thing is i am known as jesus girl in my highschool
So i dont even know what to do.
I guess its gona be a hard tenth grade for me





55 replies on this topic
Derrick - 8/14/10 @ 6:06 PM
wow well i know Gods grace is sooo sucficient
CraigSnedeker - 8/14/10 @ 6:18 PM
Prayer is a powerful tool. And none of us are perfect. Ill pray that Gods will be done.
Just dont forget try not to lie. As hard as it sounds, lying will dig yourself in deeper. Ill admit Ive done my share but I learned (the hard way) lying just makes it worse.
God bless
O.0 - 8/14/10 @ 6:20 PM
Hey! I wouldnt worry, as scary as it is!! God knows your situation. And if anyone comments, youll get the opportunity to tell them that youve changed and WHY youve changed, and that that video is not who you are like anymore because God has changed you now. And if any embarrassment comes, as hard as it is, know that any bad comments made towards you isnt really to you, but to Gods creation (God made you)... and God knows your worth, and youre worth a LOT to Him. So give up your anxiety for God to deal with, dont deal with it yourself, and take His braveness to go through with this. And thats a tough thing to do, cause you just have to keep reminding yourself that Gods view of you is first of all completely accurate, but secondly, God knows all of you. No one else knows. HIS view of you is to be kept, not what bad comments others say :) And pray that the video gets taken down or something, cause Im sure that would be a good thing to get rid of as well! :) Take care :)
CraigSnedeker - 8/14/10 @ 6:21 PM
Good point ^
Derrick - 8/14/10 @ 6:28 PM
thanks that means a lot
Sarah - 8/14/10 @ 6:32 PM
Ditto to O.0
Marvin - 8/14/10 @ 6:35 PM
Well... As a matter of fact... You could actually show them that God reaches out to anyone, no matter what theyve done... So use their mockery as a tool to preach to them... Dont let them pursue/chase you with that video, its up, Ive done tons of mistakes and I wouldnt trade them in for anything... They made me become myself. Ive been bullied, Ive been mocked but I am standing, I am breathing and I am loved. What more do I want? I am basically an outsider at school, think I mind? I have a group of awesome people on this site, C28 and at least I can have a good, Christian conversation with them. Most importantly, I have the fairest, best and most awesome judge to talk to. Its God, our Father, he can give the best advice and all hes going to tell us is going to be JUST AWESOME. So dont turn away from your old self with disgust but admit that it WAS you, but now youve changed. If they laugh and mock you, let them, but dont let them tear you down. For the moment youre on your knees, you cant turn around to see that Satans going to strike you down. Dont let him, but cry out for Jesus and hell help you!
Sister, I could have done so many things to improve my reputation at school, I freely chose to not do them. Ive ordered some C28 shirts in order to symbolize to them that I DO NOT want to be associated with that kind of trash... But hopefully, Ill be encouraged by these, you and the Lord to actually be that what I profess to be. Alive in Christ.
Stephanie - 8/14/10 @ 6:54 PM
God can and will use this situation for His good. He sees all things and sometimes we cant see what He has planned or why He allows things to happen, especially when we have been living for Him. Just remember that God is not surprised by any situation and He will be with you. Deuteronomy 31:8. God also tells us not to worry about what you will say. Matthew 10:19-20. Spend some time in prayer too. :)
Derrick - 8/14/10 @ 8:16 PM
THANK YOU ALL WOW I REALLY APPRECIATE THIS ALOT!!! =)) God bless all of you!
Derrick - 8/15/10 @ 1:12 PM
Praise God i am soo full of peace today.
Nd its not the peace that the world gives but the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Ive stopped stressing about it.
But i have to admit that it has reminded me how mean the people of the world can be.
and I am gona make sure that come september my banner will be clear.
That I no longer represent the LGBTQ community but I represent GOD and the Full Gospel.
Praise God!
jake - 8/18/10 @ 8:41 AM
Everything that everyone wrote is right in my book and I cant really add a whole lot, just enter the fight with confidence and know what your going to say, have confidence in the Holy Spirit to open doorways to conversations and remember that what the enemy does for evil, God uses for good.
Derrick - 8/18/10 @ 11:39 AM
I am soo upset right now....all of this sounds nice...but i have a lot going on. And I am happy with all the love i get on this site. But you guyz are suppose to love me...were christian.
i am flooded with so much hate right now in my life..and i don't think it's fair. i want to switch schools but my mom went let me.
wow...and while i was reading the word last night..I was thinking and wondering why i became gay. And I realized that i have ever since i was little always wanted to be a boy. Ask my brothers and they can testify to how this is true. I have always wanted to be a boy. and I always hated girly stuff. And when i had to do girly stuff with my mom i always faked my enjoyment of it. I hated barbie dolls..nd i always enjoyed playing with my brother's toy cars and action figures.
the only dolls i ever remember liking is the cabage patch. and teddy bears.
but i have always been this way..i guess it's just now that i am realizing it. But i believe i was born gay.
Nd my pastor addressed that to me a few weeks ago..saying "I believe people are born gay because we are born in sin and shaped in inequity." but the bible does say i have to be born-again to enter into the kingdom of heaven. So im trying to see where God is going to take me with all this mess. Because honestly i can not help but be me.
and its definitly not the best feeling in the world to know that you don't fit in with the world...or the church eithier.
I don't understand myself...and i honestly don't think anyone understands me.
I am just pissed right now.
Andrew - 8/18/10 @ 10:27 PM
Hey Nazira we are here for you.
We do love you that is why we rebuke you if we didn't care we would say nothing
and what are you talking about you fit in with us you are seeking after God and that is what we are all doing just because you are just starting over-ish does not mean you don't fit in it means you are finding your way.
you should watch "to save a life" beginnings happen all the time
God and us are here for you
Derrick - 8/19/10 @ 12:35 PM
wow thanks
but to deal with this school stuff.
my new motto for life is...
"Think highly of yourself! The World will only take you at your own estemme!!"
Laurie - 8/19/10 @ 6:25 PM
I am new here and you don't know me, so take my words with a grain of salt. But this is what I think. You are BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY GOD MADE YOU. He made you in His own image and YOU ARE NOT A MISTAKE THE WAY YOU ARE MADE. HE LOVES YOU AS YOU ARE!!! So. Where does that leave you? I think your pastor did you a disservice in telling you that you were "gay because you were born in sin and shaped in iniquity"...He's putting together a bunch of elements that do not belong together and coming up with a conclusion that is erronious. It's like saying: I have 2 green apples in one hand and 2 in the other. Clearly, because 2+2=4, all apples are green. See? I've proved it! Because we all know that, indeed, 2+2 IS 4! The problem is it has NOTHING whatsoever to do with APPLES. And what you need to realize, as does the *rest* of Christianity is that the way that your genes have been encoded for your sexual orientation doesn't make you bad or sinful. Maybe it means we need to re-evaluate how we are understanding scripture. There is a lot we DO NOT do in scripture because it is not "meant for us" these days (ie, killing entire nations down to the last man woman and child? or how about sacrificing animals, etc.) Perhaps we are "meant" now, with our greater understanding of genetics, etc. to not be ludicrously narrow-minded and judgemental about people who are born genetically different? Perhaps we should be focusing more on scriptures like "Love one another as Christ loves you" and "Judge not lest ye be judged"? I say You love who you love. Ask God to guide you and give you the love, the right kind of love, for the person He wants you to be with...then let come what may. But I know this: God doesn't want you to be conflicted and miserable all your life. Put your total trust in Him.
CraigSnedeker - 8/19/10 @ 6:35 PM
Wow Laurie well said!
Andrew - 8/19/10 @ 8:17 PM
@ Laurie I am so glad you posted I agree with somethings you say but I am going to have to disagree with somethings also what her pastor told her does add up because of orgianl sin which is passed though generations
psalm 51:5
Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
romans 5:15
But the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man... (it goes on to talk about Gods grace)
and
1 corinthians 15:22
For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive
also about sexual orientation even in the new testiment it says
"Let us behave decently, as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy"
romans 13:13
now sexual immorality can be seen in leviticus 18:22 (whole chapter is on sexual immorality though for this purpose i will only use 4,5,&22)
22"Do not lie with a man as one lies with a woman; that is detestable."
4&5
You must obey my laws and be careful to follow my decrees. I am the LORD your God. Keep my decrees and laws, for the man who obeys them will live by them. I am the LORD.
now also lets check out 1 john 2:3-6
We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. The man who says, "I know him," but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.
now this sin is no worse than any other sin every one leads to death and every one was another whip to His back but it is a sin
and for judging i have to speak againt that or no one would know they are doing wrong
matthew 7:1-5
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye.
now see it does say "do not judge or you too will be judged" but we are all going to be judged it goes on to say in the parable that if you have a clean conscience of the sin you may judge the fault
think of it this way how would a baby ever know it was doing wrong if you never told it? And how do you know the baby is doing something wrong by "Judgeing" the actions.
now I agree with you on loving like Jesus Loved that is indesputiable in my book.
"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God."
1 john 4:7
Laurie - 8/19/10 @ 8:17 PM
Thanks Craig. I think we lose sight of the fact that most of us go to churches that regularly overlook or explain away certain passages of scripture that do not fit in with our church culture in America today. How about Paul's admonision for women to "keep silent in the church"? Yeah...that one doesn't go over so well in most of our churches in this day and age...oh there's actually some that hold to it, but they're NOT real popular! I find it really interesting that people want to get so riled up about certain hot-button "sins" (mainly because they are really points of politial debate) but will blindly ignore other "sin" issues. What about Pastor So-and-so's *severe* GLUTTONY issues? Why are we not harping on that? Why hasn't he been drummed out of the church for that? That's clearly an issue of lack of self-control, *choosing* to sin, right? Yet we look the other way and have mercy. We let him deal with it in his time, between him and God as he sees fit or not! Because it's HIS BUSINESS. It's ours to love and support him as our brother in Christ. Now if he sins AGAINST me, I can speak with him about it, etc, and then we're give a set of guidelines in dealing with conflict resolution...but as long as his "sin" is just something he's struggling with in himself...it's between him and his Lord. We're only there for support. Period.
And by the way, y'all...did you know that the term SIN is an archery term that means missing the mark? That's right...we all fall short and miss the mark, much of the time.
Andrew - 8/19/10 @ 8:35 PM
like I had said every sin leads to death
also sin may be an archery term but it was first used as a word that meant the same thing archery took the term
romans 3:23
for all have sinned and "fall short" of the glory of God
so you are right but each sin should also be brought to light like you said not only "hot button" sins but every sin
Marvin - 8/19/10 @ 9:19 PM
Hey Nazira, I thought I'd give you a verse to think on
John 9:1-3
"As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" "Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."
Surely Jesus refers to a man and blindness but he was targeting the situation.
So Nazira, even if you were born to be gay it doesn't mean that you HAVE TO BE gay in order to live. Just as Jesus said to Nicodemus, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again." (John 3:3b)
Nazira, show them that GOD IS POWERFUL and that you can be strong too.
Remember Jesus' word to his discipled at Samaria. The harvest is ripe, harvest the fruits of the spirit so that you may be joyous too and yield fruits as well. With the water of life from Jesus and the minerals/vitamins from the Fruits of the spirit and the light from Christ too. What more do you need?
Here are the verses I am referring to with water of life and the fruits of the spirit.
Water of life - John 4:14 "but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life."
Jesus being the light of the World - John 1:4 "In him was life, and that life was the light of men."
Harvesting the Fruits of the spirit - John 4:35-38 "Do you not say. 'Four months more and then the harvest'? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. Thus the saying 'One sows and another reaps' is true. I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Other have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor."
The Fruits of the Spirit - Galatians 5:22-23 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law."
I hope this encourages you to live for Christ and to smile once in a while because of Him and us :D