Ive been struggling with a lot of anxiety issues. It really affects me and I am so afraid of what people think because of the way I act. My anxiety makes me irritable and depressed because it takes a lot out of me to be social and to just be around a group of people. Especially those I don't know or feel comfortable around. I'm so embarrassed and just wish I could be normal. I don't know how to act anymore. Ive just become really angry inside and I don't know how to cope with these things. Ive thought about seeing a Christian counselor, but I'm not sure if I should or if its what I need. I depend a lot on my sister for support, but she is not there for me in the way I want her to be. I hate that she's married, I feel like she cares less for me. I am just really hurting inside and I feel attacked when my mom and sister tell me I need to go to counseling. I don't think I'm that bad and if I am I would want to make that decision on my own. Not because of them.