For years I have sinned and had lust my self. Due to this i have been in so much trouble and i am screaming to get the sin out of me. I battle with myself to not think ways or do things. I want, no im demanding myself to be a better person and say "LEAVE ME SATAN"!!!!!! but i dont feel that its gone. I am in trouble with all that. I read the bible and know in my heart that Jesus in the Lord, the one and only, the one that went through so much than i can ever hurt or carry on my shoulders, I know he died for my sins and to save me. I love HIM for all and more. But why am i scared to let him all the way in? I dont want to lust, i dont want to sin or feel sin or anything. I go to the Calvary Chapel in anaheim weekly and i broke down this weekend cause i felt something. WHY AM I SCARED to fully be with him. I want to, i need to. maybe im trying to hard. Is there anything wrong with me? am i to far into satan and a lost cause? I love Jesus and want his love and to follow his path.