I am having a difficult time dealing with addictions and my mind. The vile thoughts take over and I cannot even move, it gets so so bad... I dont want to be like this anymore, but I dont know how to cease it. Everywhere I go, there is something that triggers my eating disorder, my self injurious ways, and suicidal thoughts. Its been getting almost too much to bare, and the thought of leaving it al behind, sounds so appealing.