My best friend, and also my first love, and I had a falling out about a year and a half ago. Feelings were shared and hurt and I am having a hard time mourning the loss of the friendship. I miss him every day, but I feel very hopeless about repairing our friendship. I know in my heart that God has forgiven me, but I cant seem to forgive myself and I know it has to do with the fact that my friend hasnt forgiven me. I need help moving on, accepting the loss, healing, and forgiving myself.