Wes - Rowland Heights, CA- C28 Supporter

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Earlier this year,my mom passed away from a form of cancer called multiple myloma {blood cancer} which spread to her colon. My mom & I were very close all my life,& she was like my best friend. I cared for her the last 3 years of her life. When she passed,I was financially & emotionally forced to leave the only place Ive ever called home for 40 years - Southern California {Rowland Heights,to be exact}. At the time,I only had one friend who was in a position to help. This friend {Chris} & his wife {Sara,who Ive known for 11 years,are both of questionable moral character,& Ive had problems with their mindsets/actions in the past. I moved into a house in the rural midwest town of Rolla,Missouri with them,their 3 year old daughter,& Sarahs parents which Im required to pay "rent" with my entire monthly ebt resources {which Im rarely allowed to get anything for myself} & house chores,that in which I get yelled at & demanded upon {theyre taking bossing me around like a servant for granted. Not even any please or thank you}. So far,Ive been here for 5 months & cant find a job. Theres just no opportunities here. Ive put in applications to nearly every business in town & only succeded in getting 2 interviews & nothing else. Anyway,off the bat they were both getting on my case. See,the both of them are racist,sexist,mysogenistic,hypocritical,bigoted,perverted,twisted,controllive,self centered types who believe they are "alpha male" & "alpha female" people & that anyone who doesnt think like them are screwed up & that the whole world thinks like them. They are trying to get their daughter to be an "alpha" {she tells me to "shut up",spits at me,& hits me. She also hits the family pets,who do retaliate. She also makes comments about & stares at womens "parts". All of this is jokingly "allowed by Chris & Sarah}. They talk about women they pass on the street derogatorily & brag about the women that they both shared since they got here over a year ago {yes,shes a bisexual who,get this: she claims to be a Christian & sort of attends a baptist church here in the area}. They both call me names like "incompetant","useless","worthless","house b-----","piece of s---","queer","homo",& "gay" {Im not,but because I try to be a caring,understanding,loving,sensitive person who also likes things like musicals,romantic movies,etc.,that makes me gay,because the only men like that are gay men}. They have tried to control the way I dress,act,what I like,even the way I wear my hair. They have put down my mom & my friends {my only true family as I was never close to my dad or actual siblings}. I cant afford to get a monthly card for my cell phone or stamped envelopes & paper. I was originally alllowed to borrow a game system for the internet access,but they keep taking it away as "punishment" for getting upset with their constant mistreatment {they know tjat I struggle with anger,but they choose to frustrate me anyway}. Also they try to control my time out of the house,so opportunities to go to the library to use the computer are rare. Another good example is that Im not allowed to attend Sunday morning services because they want to take personal outside time & someone has to stay at home to watch over things although most churches around here dont offer evening or weekday services. Also,they try to keep me from going to Celebrate Recovery because they dont believe in it. Anyway,I need to stay in touch with my friends to stay sane. Theyre the only ones who truly worry & care about me. Chris thinks that things like family,friends,relationships,even time to worship God are "earned luxuries". I believe they are human necessities. Chriss friends,however,are allowed to ridicule me with Chriss support. Chris himself isnt a christian. He is also getting violent towards me. Hes shoved me aroungd a couple of times & even threatened my well being. I dont believe in violence,not to mention that I dont want to go to jail & hes 69" & solidly built compared to my 510",185 lb. frame. He could put me in the hospital or worse. Also,hes threatened me to not talk about the problems. Now,theres a new problem coming. Sarahs brother {the prior occupant of my room} is coming for Christmas. Its not known how long hes staying & hes said to be alot worse. He is a druggie & a people user who knows how to manipulate his parents & get them to take his side in everything,even when he does bad. Its said he is the kind of person who will exploit my weaknesses,deliberately set me off,& tell outlandish lies about me to get me kicked out. Also,its not past him to attempt to kill someone. Im already being kicked out onto the living room couch when he arrives,if not kicked out alltogether. Im in the middle of nowhere {if I had the ability to leave,I assure you that I wouldve done so by now} with winter cold & snow coming {being a lifelong native of SoCal,Im not prepared for it} & my true home {not to mention those people who truly worry about & care for me} is at least 1,500 miles away & I dont have the resources to get back or even sustain myself if I could. Im stressed out with worry. Im asking for prayer for deliverance. I need a better living situation,a job,stability,& peace of mind,body,& spirit. Thank you

posted 2 Years Ago |

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Location: Rowland Heights, CA C28 Supporter since: 4/27/2008

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