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Where to begin? Raised mostly on the East Coast but have lived in NJ, Texas, LA, and on one of the Marshall Islands in the Pacific, but now in good old NC.My walk with God has been an experience to say the least. I was raised Catholic because my Mother was raised Catholic by an immigrant Polish Lady that adopted her fresh of the boat. My first nine years of Catholic school was filled with larger then life, fanatical Nuns that seemed to like punishing us children more then teaching us about God. I basically feared God for years because of them and then put him on a back shelf until my twenties. Still believed but, had no clue who he really was. You see, in my experience and teachings of God, we were taught to just listen and not explore the bible for fear that we would get it wrong. Married in my early twenties mostly because of low self-esteem issues. Put up a good front, but was lost inside. Realized I had made a mistake about 6 months into it, but was taught to stick it out. Six years later, my daughter came along. Best gift ever!! One year after that, our marriage and my life were in shambles. Wife had drug problems in the past and was now fully addicted to crack and found out that she had been unfaithful for years. Still I tried to keep it together and get her help, but after months of trying, then her putting my daughter in danger many times, and my failing health from not sleeping or eating for weeks at a time, God stepped in. He told me, for the sake of my daughter, to move on that there was nothing more I could do. So I did and felt peace for the first time in about seven years. I continued to try and help her, but from the outside instead of in the middle of things. She never came around and passed away several years ago from an overdose. I dont hate her and I forgive her and pray for her soul. She had many hard struggles in her early life that she could not get away from them except through numbing herself from the pain.
Just my daughter and I ever since. Many ups and downs there, but a blessing all the same. My struggles with how I believed in God continued, but I can now say that I read the bible and relate to it. I have a great mentor who is strong with the Lord, to teach me. And I am working on my direction and my path to the Lord daily. Still stumble, but know that he is there to carry me and set me on the path again.
Now I have you guys to help me strengthen that relationship even more. God bless you all........

Favorite Scripture

Psalm 24: The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul he leads me in the path of righteousness For his names sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil For you are with me Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies You anoint my head with oil My cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me All the days of my life And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.
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Luke 9:23-26 If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself and take up the cross daily, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. For what profit is it to man if he gaines the whole world, and himself destroyed or lost? For whoever is ashamed of Me and My word, of him the Son of man will be ashamed when He comes into his own glory, and His Fathers and of the holy angels.

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Sarah32 Just wanted to put a little sunshine on your wall with some smiley faces. :):):):) Okay, so its a very girly thing to do....but well Im a girl, and theres no symbol for footballs or flames of fire lol sooo, smiley faces will have to do!! Im praying for you, Christian. I know I say it to you all the time, but I just wanted to let you know you are not forgotten, buddy.<3
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Alex Thank you for the verses... I cant help but still be worried...i keep tryin not to cry. I fell asleep next to her but before when I was just laying there i just prayed for him to do somethin about this. I dont want either of us to hurt anymore. Im scared. Thanks again for the scripture brother. I am less of a wreck than I was last night because of it. God bless you.
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tyler i wont man thanks again for praying ill keep you in my prayers! God bless you!
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Alex Thank you Christian. I guess I will reply with you guys if you ALL want me too. :) Well thanks again for your words and your prayers. You are my brother in Christ.
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Courtney Oh! and just so Sarah can keep up, the next reply that I get from you, I will reply under your reply! haha
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Courtney Awww thank you!!! Youre sweet!!! I really hope that you do feel better.. Just know that you can still talk to me any time just like it was last time when Sarah was away for that wonderful experience from Joyce Meyers.. I miss you both so terribly, and I want the three amigos back right noww!! lol, but unfortunately, Sarah took leave for something tragic thats making her body so weak.. But I pray my heart out until I cant anymore with her illness as well as your troubles my dear.. I hope that we can still talk, and hopefully Sarah just pops up and sends joy through the whole site like she always does!! I love you both so much and I still check my email just in case you guys ever reply to anything or have something to say just so I dont miss anything.
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Courtney MY CHRISTIAN!!! I know Im breaking the rules about posting on your site, but I wanted to talk to you so badly this morning! Alex didnt even get to finish what he was doing because our internet went out and wouldnt come back on for ANYTHING! It made me so irritated because I couldnt get to talk to you to see if youre okay and just because I miss talking to you.. I hope youre doing okay... =/ Its hard going through these days without you and Sarah.. It nearly kills me and I just want to know that you and Sarah are okay.. I miss you guys like CRAZYY!!!
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Alex Thank you for your prayers I left a comment on my page for you. I dont know how this site works yet. Courtney is trying to teach me haha. But thank you very much. Courtney talks and thinks highly about you and Sarah. You two sound like amazing people. Much like the guardian angels put into my life. Thank you both for being there for her. She needs friends like you two. And I think she has found them on this site. God Bless you brother..:)
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LiveLifeToTheFullest Thank you for your words... I been thinking about what you have said for days... I never took him back before now because I feared what is now happening again... Please keep praying for that I allow God to guide me.
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tyler hey dude thanks soo much for praying for me it means a hole lot God bless you!
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Cool Z Hi Christian! thank you for your prayers!!! Your friend in Christ!
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Courtney Hahaha! Im so happy that youre the top prayer warrior!! I felt really bad as soon as I seen myself on top, and as soon as you started praying, the last prayer made you on top! Hahaha!! Thats hilarious!! YOU DESERVE TO BE THE TOP PRAYER WARRIOR! You and Sarah both. CONGRATULATIONS!!
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Ernie Thank you my brother for your support and wisdom, I will do my best with the help of Jesus to do as you did: instead of anger, be kind, and speak with understanding...(pray as I think and take a breath before I react and ask myself WWJD?)-1 Peter 2:1-10 ESV So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good. As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.-amen and amen!-love, your brother in Christ Jesus, Ernie B
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Sarah32 Copied and pasted the most recent convos on Courts wall. Paste more on here if you see any I missed and are still going on....still really tired and out of it. :-/ And if you guys can think of a better system, let me know. Its WEIRD to see my face everywhere on Courts board!! Maybe I need to change my profile pic to something more neutral-- like a sailboat- or a sheepdog-or a picture of Oz lol. Anyway, I am too tired to write any more now- both on the walls and on email. Know Im thinking about you guys.<3 I have plenty of things stored in my brain that I would love to tell you, just not the energy. Its coming soon. Until then, I look forward to seeing my lovelies talk to and fro. :) And p.s.- I loooooved both of your emails- too, too sweet. You guys are definitely awesome:):)
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Sarah32 Christians the top prayer warrior!!!! Woooooo Hooooooo!!! CONGRATULATIONS, BUDDY!!! :D:D:D
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christian Got me a TALLL WALLLLLLLLL ! =)
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christian Thats the three of us smiling because the team is back!
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Sarah32 Well thats why we are transferring everything to YOUR wall, Courtney dear. We are going to fill that wall upppp! You are going to have so many wall posts, you wont know what to do with them!! And do not feel bad for not participating on the prayer board, hun. Sometimes ya just need a break. But I truly believe you have the words to speak, Courtney. The Holy Spirit is in you and He gives you words you cannot speak or utter yourself. (Romans 8:26) I KNOW there are people missing you, because we just cannot fill your place dear. Christian has his gifts, I have my own, and you dear- have some that are COMPLETELY different from ours that add a different dynamic to the prayer board. Its true or else I wouldnt say it. :)
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Courtney Okay so I have comments that go wayyyy down. Just so you know! lol, I have been trying to interact! haha. I was going to tell you something else but I just went blank again... Which Is why I have to keep posting comment after comment on the Disney post with Sarah =) hmm.. OH RIGHT! I will reply to your email as soon as I get up from my little nap Im about to take! I was just so excited to hear from you both that I checked all of this really early since thats what Sarah usually does when she cant be here for the day! =) So therefore, youll have things to reply to!! ...I wish I had some milk to go along with my chunky cookies so I could eat them.. Im weird like that.. I cant eat cookies without milk.. Ever. lol. I have some organic chocolate milk in the fridge, but I can only have white milk with my yummy yumm yumm cookies. lol. Well anyway, I wish that you two were on right now because I feel like talking because I miss my real and true family because theyre my everything because theyre actually here for me and love me because theyre amazing.. hehe.. Okay I think Ill quit doing my "because" sentences... Because its getting annoying. HAHA! Its bad when I annoy myself. lol. But it was fun at the time.. I did the because thing again.. OKAY IM GOING TO TAKE MY NAPPY NAP NOW!! I feel like Im talking to myself, but SARAH NEEDS REST LIKE NO OTHER AFTER YESTERDAY!! And Christian is still writing his novel to me which I cant wait for! While I had the tremendous amount of joy reading my best sissy in the whole entire worlds novel.. By the way, I LOVE TO READ MORE THAN ANYTHING. Hence the novels.. lol. Do you know that hence can become one of the most annoying words ever..? Believe me when I say that..=) These birdies WILL NOT BE QUIET OVER HERE!! I had to go outside once to chase a woodpecker from the tree next to my window in my room because he did it the SAME TIME EVERY MORNING AT 5:30am WHEN I HAD TO GET UP FOR SCHOOL AT 6:00am AND HE WOULD NOT STOP!! I swear.. Everybody still laughs at me for the woodpecker scenes that I have made in the past. lol, Funny stories.. Just not at the time. Apparently, Im very humorous when Im mad. Oh well, as long as it makes other people laugh, its okay. I just realized Im being REALLY ADHD again. Sorry!! Im going for real this time! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, AND I WILL REPLY TO YOU SARAH AS SOON AS MY LITTLE PEEPERS OPEN!! Ill do your loving thing! ((((HUGGLES FOR YOU BOTH))))) Thats really fun actually.. =D One more time now... ((((GROUP TEDDY BEAR HUGGSS)))) Okay bed time! Bye bye!! <3<3<3
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Sarah32 "Cookies are YUM YUM." HAhahaha, now Im picturing you both saying it in your own special way. Makes me giggle. ;} And we really dont know just how much estrogen is in this group. Remember the chickens pumped up with hormones so much so that they have boobies? Yup, thats ALLLLLL going into YOUR body buddy. Estrogen galore! ;D lolololol And you know you like being the only guy in the group. If we brought a dartagnan in this group, Chris, I know you would be flexing those muscles with a bellowing, "urrrrrrr." You would be completely in competition. ;p
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Sarah32 And I will admit, I used to only sleep three hrs. a night. But I do have a sicky-ness in my body which makes me sleep a whopping 12-14 hrs. Crazy, right? I used to have to sleep 17....so I was basically in a coma lol. And German, yes, memories.....my sweet, funny Grandma was full blooded German. Evidently her parents would use the language in code to talk about her without knowing what they were saying...So cruel! Anyway, she picked up on a few phrases. But my dear Grandma could be a lil off at times so Im still not sure if that was really even German lol. THOSE were the words I was trying to teach the girls. Phonetically one would sound like this- oba-deeba-stein-a-heada-kabugen. Apparently it means "Wake up the rooster is crowing." My Dad would wake me up each morning with the greeting.....but we really dont know if he was talking about roosters, marshmallows, or just plain cursing at me in the early morning hrs. lololol. That is sooo cool that your family speaks some German, Court!! Does that mean youre a full blooded Kraut then? And puh-lesse tell me if you can make any sense out of my gibberish!! LOL
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Sarah32 What do you guys think about moving our convos to Courtneys page? We can copy and paste our still on-going conversations to her wall, and continue like usual. Chris has waaaay too many comments on his page right now. ;)
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christian does that mean 12:01 tonight? I know Sarah will be up speaking german and making cookies :D
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Sarah32 Bahaha yesss, a very skewed version of German lol. Noo, Im trying to go to bed at a decent time, you know, before the vampires awake lol. So go with whatever time you guys feel......Im going to start copying and pasting some of the comments over on Courts board, but we wont be using it until ohhh, I dont know pick a time! If 12: 01 works for you guys, we will do it! :)
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alex hay Christian, thank you for the prayers, much appreciated. god bless you :)
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christian Shoo, these ruby slippers are killing me. =) Responded to all posts below
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christian you every tried to walk a yellow brick road in these things? Tin is all you have to complain about? :)
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Courtney lmao. but HARD TO BALANCE! Especially in the rain. ..you cant move in that outfit! hehehe. no really.. its impossible unless you have.. THE OIL CAN!
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Courtney Okay I am so sorry it took me so long to reply.. My mind is just blank.. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE reading EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING that you guys write. I check my wall, then I head to Christians site. lol. But I just sent a LONG message to Christian opening up a bit about my life, and Im going to go ahead and send it to you as well so you dont have to wait for anything. AND THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for the little card you sent me!! lol it was so adorable!! And for Christian checking up on me on my email.. You guys are absolutely positively purely amazing.. I love you both with all of my heart and soul.. NEVER forget that, and NEVER think Im losing touch or how I feel about both of you. You two are my life, and its going to stay that way.
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Courtney hey hey heyy! River Pirates is all boys!! so there! lol. except one girl but hey.. the odds are against her! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THAT MOVIE AND I BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG BEG YOU TO WATCH IT! I wont leave you alone until you do. =) Oh and perfume is permanent.. so ha! Dah dah dah dah! dah dah! dah dah! CANT TOUCH THIS! lol.
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christian You know, the movie sounds familiar. I will look it up
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Sarah32 Keep on looking down the page Court and Chris...Theres a lot of messages.....
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Sarah32 Check your inbox.Youll see why I waited till I felt more able and well. I really do write novels. ;)
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christian still laughing!!!!!!!!!
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Sarah32 "NO PICTURES FOR YOU!!" Haha, but really, picture my computer saying it, cause its really gmail saying "no," not me!
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christian Courtney, Im working my way up to you and your last post. Which is beautiful by the way :) Oh, and I will forward to Sarah the email I wrote you yesterday since you said its ok, and so she can be on the same page as well. Shoo, this long distance therapy group is wearing me out. ha ha Really, I love our time together!!
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Sarah32 :-):-):-):-):-)
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christian Sarah, I just noticed one of your replies from 2 days ago, I will catch-up so dont forget to check out posts down the page :) Oh, and you have to forward me the email about your cousin and Courtney? I havent got a clue what is happening there.
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christian If I ever even say the word gingham, please shoot me :)
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Courtney hehehe. you dont need to say it, you already typed it. so nehh! =) i still love you Christian! lol
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tyler hey dude thanks for praying for my music! and thanks for not freaking out when i seid its christian death metal but thanks soo much for praying! God bless you!
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Courtney Hello my dearest friends... I just want to say thank you to you both... you guys made me smile so much that my cheeks hurt. lol. I love you both tremendously, and today has been a good day because I didnt have to work today, nor do I have to work tomorrow. haha I love that feeling!! I thank you so much for your prayers.. It means so much to me. Especially now with everything. And Sarah, no I dont mind, nor will I ever mind you emailing or talking to Christian about me with anything. I trust both of you with all of my heart, so you never have to ask me from now on if I mind something. ...Its really hard for me to trust anyone, and I have never been able to trust anybody in my whole entire lifetime because they have always broken my heart in some way or another. I dont trust my family nor any of my other friends except for you two.. I thank you both for all of the compliments. Especially with the gift that I apparently have. lol. Its so nice to know that people think of me in that way. There are many of things that you guys think Im probably holding back from telling you two. Like I said before, Im a private person so if any of you guys want to know anything, I will just email you two instead. That way you will both be caught up and in knowledge of everything. I LOVE getting emails now. Its so fun. haha. But Im still waiting on your cousin to hopefully write back to me through email as well Sarah. =) I wish that I could just hug you both all the time!! It would be really nice to just meet you guys and have a great time together with everything. I just want you both to know that no matter what, you two are ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS in my prayers and thoughts every day and night. I will never get tired of saying that because its true. I am praying for your agonizing pain Sarah as well as your well being. You always deserve to be happy and to keep that absolutely beautiful smile on your face. I always wish to be just like you when it comes to your amazing faith in our Father. You are so strong in so many ways.. And Christian, you amaze me because of all the trials I know that you go through, and you are never ever EVER too proud to ask for help or to come to us no matter what it is. You have been through so much as a person, especially when emotion that is one of the strongest that you can have are involved.. You are like a warrior of our Father and I hold you up so high. Both of you.. You both have tremendous gifts that are so rare to find these days. You are both blessed in the most beautiful way. You are both cursed with a heavenly gift. And you both use it well throughout your trials, as well as others. My two guardian angels.. I love you guys..
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Sarah32 And Courtney, please, please email us about whats going on with you. We love you so much and we want your heart to find healing-- I can see from the words you write that you have some pain you need to let us hear. And dont deny it hun, your words are so visceral and emotionally laden. I want to help shoulder your burden, Courtney, just like the Bible instructs us to do.<3 I know you are a tender, self-sacrificing soul, but in order to give of yourself, you need to be made whole. You need to concentrate on yourself, and we are here to help you do just that. :) I used to be the most guarded person myself, hoarding all the words needed to be expressed in my heart so no one could ever slice them in half and make the wounds hurt all the more. But God showed me I was imprisoning myself, yet I was the one with the key. Courtney, you are the one with the key, and I promise ya girl, we are here to help heal your wounds!! "To all who mourn... he will give a CROWN OF BEAUTY for ashes, A JOYOUS BLESSING instead of mourning, A GARMENT OF PRAISE instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own splendor." (Is. 61:3) I want to help you shoulder your burden and see you turn from a life of ashes to beauty. Ill see you through it, hun. Share with me whatever you feel comfortable with. I promise a solemn vow never to judge, to always sympathetically listen, and to rely on God to help me bring whatever words He want me to speak to you. I want to see you better, dearest, in every way possible. :) A song for you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DL544f8FmNA
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christian I agree with Sarah and am terribly worried about you. Come back to us sweetie, we need you! Talk to Sarah or talk to me or talk to us both. Whatever helps you and gives you comfort!
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Sarah32 And thanks so much for your kind words, Christian. It makes my heart happy. :)
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Sarah32 Haha, last I checked, I am 23 lol. You know you were saying you felt like you aged a good twenty years from your experience. Well, I feel the same about mine at times. Im not who I was a year ago. Not even slightly. I guess some things must change when youre put through the ringer like the two of us. But Im sure we will be all the better for it!! ;)
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Sarah32 Haha, well I guess that is true! A few months back, I felt like I was closer to 98, so its good to be feeling younger, even if "younger" supersedes my age by twenty years lol.
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christian You look GoooooD for 98!!!! lol ;o)
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Courtney My dearest friends.. I am back. I was really exhausted and sick because I started working 14 hour shifts again.. Now I have a crew boss that treats me like crap and gives demos to everybody else before me, and I am getting way under paid than they said I was going to get.. My health with my asthma is not improving. Ive been extremely depressed about things because they seem to go down hill every step of the way, but I can not afford to quit, nor can I afford to do my other opportunity because I dont have a cent to my name.. But I still believe in God and keep my faith and all I have to Him. Now my dear Christian, you def. need my email address to keep me up to date. Ive read and kept up with all of your wall posts, but I figured that you guys get along so greatly. =) Ya dont really need me with all of this. I love you guys and keep you both in my heart every day and night. You are both in my thoughts every second of the day. Really great picture by the way Christian. =) You age very well!! Looks like youre in your mid 30s. lol Sarah, I still pray for your health with every breath of me. I dont really know whats wrong with me. Like I said, every day I got on just to know that you guys have each other. But I could never get myself to reply.. I just somehow got cut down and treated so badly that my depression got so bad this time.. I just want to let you guys know that Im still alive and all, and I want to read your emails. So my email address is courtneysenter@rocketmail.com. Use it to your delight. I will always check it just to make sure I get your mail. I love you guys.. Im deeply sorry.. Just not myself..
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Sarah32 Why was mine so much longer than Christians? Christian, Ill keep digging up more info on yours so that your description can override mine. Same with Courtney. :)
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Courtney How do you get on those things?! I wanna tryy!! I love these type of things. Oh goodness Im excited!! lol
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Peter dude, thanks for the encouragement and prayers. Know that I am praying for you as well as you tackle each day. Your story left me speechless. You have been through a lot my brother. God bless you for keeping up the good fight.
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christian Thank you Sarah! Now please take care of yourself knowing that my prayers continue with you always. Besides, I new you well; our team is falling apart. Your not feeling well and Courtney is MIA. I dont want to be the only stooge here :) You know I am joking and the most important thing to me is your health!!! Rest up lady and email when you feel better. Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." ( Deuteronomy 31:6 )
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christian Yeah, and I want to be an Astronaut. Move on Elaine; I mean Sarah :) I think Courtney would rather watch football; what ya say Court; men in tights!
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Courtney I AGREE ALL THE WAY WITH THE DANCING! I love dancing and singing and ballerinia dances! I dont want to get crushed by football players.. And the nutcracker is an absolute classic.. LOVE IT! Gotta love hockey though!! ICE ICE BABY!
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Sarah32 Yes, I received it and just read it. :) Im still not doing too well...Im more symptomatic than usual. Know Im praying for you, Christian!! I know everyday is a battle to stay on the right path and develop new habits. Adapting to a new lifestyle without someone is one of the toughest things imaginable!! Im continuing to pray for strength for you, Christian, and some awesome progresses to happen in your life that can help you transition into your new life. And I will tell you the whole story about my fiance later....But not now. Im just not feeling too well right now, but Ill get back to you with my own story time session...hopefully soon.:) And I agree with your mentor (such a wise man:)- you know what to do in your gut from what the Holy Spirit is telling you, but it takes sooooo much more out of you to actually follow through with those convictions!!! You know, its like the scripture in Matthew, "The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing." (Matthew 26:41) The Spirit in you is willing to help you overcome, but oh my goooosh!! The carnal part of us doesnt want to comply!!! Its tough. VERY tough!!! I dont want to go into specifics on here, so Ill get back to you soon by email, buddy. :) Keep on keeping on...Im still rooting for you, buddy!!!!!
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Sarah32 Hey you! I read your email and I have to say....1) You are a very entertaining writer. Really, you are a captivating storyteller and the pacing was perfect....I feel like Im critiquing for english class again lol. 2) I love that you can still weave in humor here and there, even in a letter as serious as yours. That put a smile on my face. :) But in all seriousness, I can see why your situation is so confusing and emotionally crippling. Im praying for you buddy and Im hoping all went well with your mentor and that he gave you some helpful counsel and encouragement!!! Im still so, SO proud of you for the positive yet devastating steps you took to "get out." You may FEEL weak, but I know you are stronger than what you feel. Not because of anything in you, but because I know God is stronger than this situation, Christian. Ive been praying for mega amounts of strength for you, and well, I know God listens to His children. :) Im believing He is giving you ninja-like strength to conquer this problem. He listens to your prayers, Courtneys prayer, my prayers, and the many other cries to God that have been lifted up on your behalf. Youre not alone through this struggle. Not even SLIGHTLY. I know that weaning off your time from another person is killer. Ive been there- spending every day of an entire year either in person with my fiance (at the time) or on the phone. It PHYSICALLY hurts to be separated, like theres a tangible knife stuck in your heart that wont remove itself. I think you know this, but Ill reiterate what you already most likely know. ;) The pain DOES get better. Hold on to the picture of better days, Christian!! They will come!! Im asking God for them and BELIEVING they will come to you!!<3--------- I would write you a loooong email in response to yours, but Im really not feeling well today. I feel like my body is giving out on me...Just know Im thinking of you, praying for you, and hoping in a *much* brighter tomorrow for you, Christian!!! Btw- where in the world is Courtney?!? Im getting a little worried....
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christian  Hey Lady! Thank you for all the kind words. I had a great meeting that lasted almost seven hours but I still wanted to stay longer. This is going to be short because I am worried about your health and I want you to get some rest. You have tried to do too much over the last week, so relax and re-energize!! Sorry, thats the Father coming out in me. I will write you a lengthy reply later. I too am very worried about Courtney! I think I will leave a prayer on the board for her. Thank you again Sarah and though we only know each other through this site, you are rapidly becoming one of my best and trusted friends!! I feel your compassion in all you do and my heart sings with admiration and praise for the person you are. God Bless you and I love ya Lady! Now get some rest!!!!
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christian Finally able to post
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Sarah32 Thank you so much for your encouraging words, Christian.:) Youre a sweetheart! Ive been amazed by your words too- your obvious love for people and God, and the sweet gentleness that comes forth with every word you pray. And just to let you know, I havent forgotten about your mini-novel lol. I have company coming over at the time- my sister-in-law, brother, baby Harper (!), and my two cousins....one of which has been in Egypt for a month, photographing the turmoil, journaling the government breakdown, and trying to help the Egyptians in any way he can. Needless to say, Im happy to be seeing him alive and well!!
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christian Oh, and I have been looking for Coutney as well. Hope she os ok?
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christian oops Courtney; that is
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Dana Thanks for praying for me =-] God Bless you
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Courtney Oh and thank you both for congratulating me on the prayer board!!! But like I said, for one, Sarah will be back on top in NO TIME! =) And YOU MY DEAR FRIEND are right next to her. Always will be. Thats that!
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Sarah32 And a love your last comment on my page, Christian. I think we all joined the book of the month club!!!! But what wonderful, beautiful people I have to read from! Like I said, Im tired so if you suddenly read ggrngjnejNJNfnfq thats just my face falling on the keyboard; its not a foreign language lol. Thanks for the sweet comments on my profile pic ....However I am concerned about the stalling.But I will give you kudos on the buttering up effort; you did good, and I know ya must have been around enough women to learn about that trick....or watched enough TV.;) In all seriousness, I am concerned about you, Christian. My stomach kept feeling like it was sinking deeper and deeper as I read your words. Im praying for you, buddy. I dont know whats going on, but just know, I will never condemn you. If God who is without sin has enough grace to cover your faults, then I- a person with a sin laden past will all the more follow my Fathers cue in grace! I can promise- I will never judge....I cant. I know that we all have a form of a scarlet letter stitched to us like in Nathaniel Hawthornes book. It may not be an "A".....They come in different forms. But thank God we dont have to wear those patches! (Have you read the book "Scarlet Letter"?....Im probably not making too much sense if you havent lol) Love you-- and like I said Im praying, praying, praying!!!
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Sarah32 And Courtney, I have a lot to write you, but the bed is calling. But I promise to talk to you soon, hun. :)
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Courtney MY DEAR CHRISTIAN, I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO HAVE A BAD DAYYY!!! Oh my gosh I am so sorry you were going through that this morning!!! Is there anything that I can do at all to help you feel a little more at ease or anything if youre not already doing okay..? And you are so right when it comes to the Devil. Good thing is though, we both know which ones are out mistakes, and we dont shout out "THE DEVIL MADE ME DO IT" And we take responsibility of our actions.. I know that we are only human. Yes, the Devil does tempt us from time to time, and yes, he can damage our lives more than we know if we choose to let him even in our weakest moment. Thing is, I didnt let him touch me. I was actually in the light, and two people dreamed that of me on the same night.. None of them could touch me because I was in this blinding light.. But he and his helpers did get my two loved ones.. And one of them is dead now.. And one will be forever traumatized by everything, and will never be the same in the worst possible way. Thats what tore my world apart. Because they were my world.. Its a long story, and I am sure to explain it to you and Sarah both in an email. Just prepare to seperate it into like a weeks worth of writing. haha. No joke unfortunately. But yes, you are so strong, and I am amazed that you could withstand your ground even when there felt like there was no ground to stand on... Thats how you and Sarah both inspire me and fascinate me every single time you two write.. It makes me stronger, and you two are involved in EVERY SINGLE OUTLET OF MY LIFE! And I hope to the Lord that it will stay like that from now on.. I feel like Ive known you two forever and Im already entirely close to you guys both. I am SO SO SO SO glad that you like the songg!!! That will forever be your song from me to you. And Sarah has one too!! Im actually deciding from two songs for her like I did with you. So as soon as Im done doing that, you guys will always have those songs from me no matter what happens.. Music is my life, and that is one big way that I can be apart of you guys both! =))) So is everything okay now..? I hope so!! If not just tell me and I will be here for youu!!
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Sarah32 Haha, its actually an old "new" profile pic, but thanks.:) Taking pics has been one of the last things on my list these days, so I just recycle older pics. I havent changed much, so it works.:-p ---------And I didnt have time to respond to your email earlier, but you know, my sister-in-law DID have a lot of heartburn when she was preggo, as did my mom who had two hairy babies with myself and my older brother.....So maybe theres some truth to the old saying. ;) -------And I appreciate you guys keeping you in your hearts and words. That touched my heart more than I can say....it made me even tear up a little. The same goes with me on vacation- both you and Courtney were in my heart and fervent prayers. <3 How are things going with you with your situation, Christian?
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Sarah32 Well it took quite awhile, but Im back at last, Christian!! I see you and Cortney have been writing mini novels to each other lol. Its taken awhile to read through them, but I think Im finally caught up on every word you guys have written to each other....which has been A LOT!!! Sorry I missed so much...I guess I left at the wrong time!! I think Ill make little comments here and there underneath your comments and Courtneys-- cause I wanna be involved too. ;) And I did check out the website for the kennel. It looks amazing- both from a standpoint of working there yourself and living there as a doggie.:) --------And the conference itself was great. It gave me a little glimpse of what heaven must be like- worshiping God together as one united Body of Christ with thousands of thankful souls by your side, and hearing the Word of God taught with such power and clarity.....It was definitely a breath of fresh air.:) Thanks for your continued prayers, Christian. Ive said it before and Ill say it again- you are awesome my friend. :) I kept a lot of people on this site in prayer---especially you and Courtney. Im hoping things are looking a little brighter for you two. :):)
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Courtney My Dear Christian, I hope youre having a good day!!! Im just so terribly worried about my job! I got all dressed up and I was so excited to go, but if they didnt have work today, I would have been stuck out there for hours until Savannah could pick me up.. And I cant afford that.. My boss did not pick up so I dont know if Im already fired or what... idk. I did a prayer request for it. lol. Anyway, I just want you to know that I will NEVER EVER stop being here for you no matter what the troubles are. Heck, I will stay on here for 24 hours straight if you need me. Thats a promise!! Im glad that you can stay busy like you do though! I wish so much that I could do that, but yet again, Im so glad that I still have time on here like I do because thats what pulls me through. Because unfortunately, I will have hardly no time on here in the near future with everything about court and my penalty. Plus my job 6 days a week after that. I pray to God that He will never leave me, and never let me forget anything about Him or this site and how much I have improved, and how much I want to stay improved!! My soul actually feels good and alive again, and it feels amazing! Thank you for saying that youre here anytime I need you when it comes to things I have delt with in the past. Actually, I described one subject to David on his wall post because I know that he needs it.. That kind of stuff.. I know its so hard to believe because it took me forever to see what was really happening, and its STILL so hard to believe. I explained it in very little detail.. But I hope that the Lord keeps him so safe.. It worries me to death.. Oh! And the title of the RED cd is "Until We Have Faces" But the song title is "Hymn for the missing" The other song is "Take it All Away" by the first cd they made called "Instinct and Innocence" Thats the title of the entire cd. lol. OH!! And I have a special song I want to dedicate to you thats also one of my favorites.. Its called "Not Alone" by RED on the cd title "Until we have Faces" lol. Hopefully youre not confused with all of that. Go to youtube and click on the lyrics because I want you to read it. Every word of it I dedicate to youuu!!!! lol. I am so glad to hear that you are actually improving when it comes to the Bible and reading it. I have yet to do that, and I really need to start. I know what you mean when you say it also depends on the good days or bad days because Im the same way when it comes to all of that stuff, but Im getting a little better at it. =) I will take you up on that offer when you said I could write you an email telling you all of the things, but it would take me days just to fit everything in. lol But it would be nice for another person to know, and not look at me differently than anyone else. My past hurts so badly, but yet, I still cherish and hold on to the dearest things that I would never change for any of the bad.. You are a truly good soul and hearted person no matter what you may think of yourself every now and then. You and Sarah are my heros and I once again praise GOD that you two are in my life. That makes me so lucky and I LOVE IT! I must agree that I have been very spoiled by Gods hand lately. But I have this feeling that its going to end soon.. My feelings are never wrong.. Its quite weird.. Which is why Im so worried about my good job.. But I have faith in our Father, and I will follow Him through every heartache I will go through. I will even crawl to Him like I have before when I can no longer stand.. I love you guys, and you two are like my legs that help support me to our loving Father... I feel like we are the three amegos or however you spell that. hehe. =D
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Courtney Its really awesome that you think that of me though! But to tell you the truth, I havent told much at all about hardships Ive went through on here because a lot of it are things that people should never even have to hear about it, much less go through the things.. Plus, everybody would kind of be like "wow... too much info.." and they would feel a lot better about themselves. haha. But to tell ya the truth, Im def not perfect when it comes to the spiritual thing.. I try so hard to be, and you both have made me so much stronger than I ever was.. This is the strongest I have been my entire lifetime. So I praise the Lord for that. I really think that we make each other so much stronger in every way possible.. Its really amazing because Ive never had anything like this, and its all soo new to me!! But I take every message to heart, and hope to GOD that I can make peoples lives a little better on here. Its so wonderful to hear that youre stronger in your heart with the spirituality of our Father! I just know that your daughter is going to see that and take a look at herself.. Its def. going to make her stop and think.. My father inspired me my whole life to lead me into my own dreams to be the man he was when he was in Promise Keepers, and he went around the states and taught people about Jesus and brung Jehovah witnesses into our home and sat them down to talk with him with all kinds of bibles and his huge dry erase board with so many verses that he didnt even have to look up. He knew so many off the top of his head.. I wanted to be just like that.. but he still to this day never has known that.. Im a very private person.. and I dont show feelings well.. just like my father.. But for some reason, its so much easier to open up to you and dear Sarah. And youre right she is missin out on the convos and I miss her as well!! But Im just so happy shes getting the oppertunity to go see her and listen to what she has to say.. I dont really have a taste in Joyce Meyers.. But everyone has their opinions and different ways of learning which is really good because we can give people advice from all sides of the spiritual life that the rest of us may not have seen in that way. I just feel my advice is hopeless compared to you guys because you guys can do so much that I could never dream of. You two can give advice AND say a prayer on here with verses brought into it. That fascinates me.. I can just talk. lol. Thats why you two will always be the top prayer warriors. And its always going to stay like that. =) But yes, RED is actually what Im listening to right now. Its like I turn on my soul, and it starts singing everything that I feel inside of my heart. Just so you dont have to go through all of those posts, my two favorite songs are Hymn for the Missing. And Take it all Away. Theyre amazing, and Im going to have to look up that name you gave me that your daughter listens to!!
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Courtney Dang it! The computer cut me off. Im still writing! lol.
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Courtney Man.. today has been kind of a gloomy day.. Man that does sound like a good part of the state that youre living in. I would have to go with the country side though. lol. Always have been like that.. Theres just so much more to offer.. Gods creation of this beautiful earth, and we dont have much of that left if you really look at it.. The untouched parts of this world.. well.. as untouched as its gonna get. Man has destroyed so much and its just aweful.. Anywayz.. lol sorry for the rambling thing. Thats awesome about your daughter though!! I think we could really get along if we got to know each other!! lol, everybody tellls me I sound and act older than I really am which is a good thing sometimes! haha. You really thought I was older because of some things Ive told other people about myself on here? hehehe.
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Courtney I def. checked out her post, as I do all.. lol. But thank you so much for bringing that to my attention!! I just wrote her, and Im about to write ya too! =)
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Courtney Hehehe thats funny. Ive almost done that tons of times! lol. And thank you for making me feel a little bit more at ease when it comes to being scatter brained! lol. Gosh I know what you mean about always missing each other! I actually look on the prayer board to see if you were on recently, but it never does any good. I still try though! haha. I WANT TO MOVE TO NORTH CAROLINA! Or tennessee if I cant move anywhere else, but I would have to lose my job, and that would suck completely! lol. Whats all in North Carolina anyway..? haha. I just know a lot of people that live there so Im wondering if theres a lot of country side and good people there..? Never move to South West Virginia. There are HORRIBLE PEOPLE THERE! Its like hell pretty much with the hateful people there. An elderly man slammed into my cart at the store and pushed it into the shelf with his just to get by when I was trying to move out of his way so he could get by. And a lady in her 50s nearly knocked me in the head with her mop that was sticking out of the cart at another store, but I ducked just in time. At least Im flexible or that would have sucked! There are so many more stories.. Like a lady yelling at a mentally slow guy and saying all of these horrible things to him making him cry because he accidently barely tapped her car with his... It was aweful.. I cried at that one.. I wanted to go back there and give that lady a piece of my mind while just covering him and protecting him letting him know that its okay and it was just an accident that happens to everybody.. That poor thing.. His mother had to hold him.. So yeah never go there... lol. Even the governor of that state made a public speaking saying that south west virginia was invisible to him, and to him, its not even part of the state.. So yesss thats where I used to live for a bit. haha. Your daughter is nearly the same age as me!! Whens her birthday?? Mine is August 15th, 1991. It def, shouldnt be that hard to meet you considering im a free spirit and i love to travel and take road trips and experience new and wonderful things with amazing memories! lol. Thank you so much for the compliment about me feeling strong! I just never feel like it. I just feel like I cant do anything nearly as much as normal people do, but I just keep reminding myself that theres reasons as to why we all have what we have, and it all ends up working in our Fathers plans. So it makes me feel better. lol. Have you listened to the band RED yet..? That is the most wonderful band that makes all of your troubles come to life and makes you cry, but at the end, God is always there... Its amazing!! Thats whats been helping me through the hardest times when I cant talk to anybody on here when theyre not on.. lol. I honestly dont know where I would be without you and Sarah.. I thank God every day for you two.. Its amazing how he works in so many miraculous ways, and puts people from states away together to go through the hardest times together.. There were reasons as to why we were born into this time instead of earlier.. Even though I have an old soul and would rather live back in the old days, Im actually glad that I live in these times because its people just like you as to why I have the strength and will to live when I need someone to pull me out of a horrible position and bring me back to life filled with our Father.. He has blessed me in so many ways.. Everything always ends up making sense at the end of all the hardships I have ever went through. And I def. have you to thank for the biggest hardship in my life. That and my dear Sarah. I still think that you guys are really angels here on earth that are here to help people like me... Its truly a blessing and I take as much in as I possibly can to savor it while it lasts..
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christian We just keep missing each other in our replys; Ill look at my wall several times and then hit the sack or go do something for several hours and then it never fails, you write on my wall while Im away form my laptop. Dont know about our timing girl? lol Im sorry you have to move out of the country and into a not-so-safe neighborhood. They makes me worry foe you guys. How many family members? Did you say somewhere that you have a Husband? Finally having a car sounds great though and I know you will be excited to go to church again and do other things. I own a pet boarding facility. We watch clients pets when they go out of town on vacation or business. Been doing this for 20 years. We can board about 150 animals and are normally full during holidays and summer time. It can be a lot of work, but being around the pets is cool. My daughter is working part-time there also, and she goes to the local community college. She is 19. She wants to go to a different college in the fall, so I guess I will be losing her here and at work. Im glad she is moving forward though, because a few years ago I was not to sure what was going to happen with her. She was in all kinds of trouble, but is doing so much better now. I guess she finally decided to grow up! Sunsets are cool too! Last year, we were out in the country where my daughter rides horses and saw one heck of a sunset going behind the mountains. It was so cool; we all just stopped and watched the sky change colors. Dont worry about being scatter brained; my head is all over the place at times, so I know how you feel. Just write whatever comes to mind; I will figure it out =) I hear you on not wanting to take anymore medications. I hate putting anything into my system that is foreign. My blood pressure has been going up and I have tried several medications that didnt help but made me feel lousy, so I am trying to change my diet and eat blood pressure friendly food. I am also going to look for natural supplements to lower it. Oh, and I do the spaz leg thing too, so I feel ya girl. Were you ever able to go back to work this past week? I know you wanted to those couple of days but just couldnt because of your sickness. So many of us complain over the smallest little ache or pain and use it as an excuse, and here you are, deathly sick and still trying to press on. Just goes to show you the strength and will you have. That is a gift in itself and as you said in one of your earlier posts that these challenges you have had, has made you the person you are now and you feel blessed to be that person. I have to agree; you are my hero!! =)Oh, I forgot about the time change and have to get to church! Later.
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Courtney Sorry! Start with the HAHAHA thing. It wouldnt let me post everything all at oncee! lol
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Courtney So hopefully youll forgive me, and youll be able to follow me! Im just kinda bad tonight for some reason. It took a lot out of me to sit and watch a movie. My friend actually held my head and put her hand over my mouth just so I wont talk about any random or go anywhere or do anything. I just cant watch things or sit down..but it didnt work for her so she gave up since I couldnt focus on anything. I havent gotten it checked out though cuz Im tired of things being wrong with me and taking meds for everything. Its just ridiculous. I also rock back and forth like crazy when I sit down or do anything.. And do that spaz leg thing where you always shake it. lol. Its weird but oh well. Do you know where you could start any mission work? I know that Sarah gave me a website with a person she knew that did what I want to do. I just remembered so I will have to look back in my posts. lol. Anyway, Im actually really glad that I have a friend that I could talk to if I wanted at any time of the night. Its really comforting to know that!!! Ill be waitin for your next reply!!! lol
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Courtney Hahahaha!! Thats hilarious that you knew that because of The Wizard of Oz! hehehe. That made me laugh, so I shared it with my friend thats from Virginia, so shes all new to this as well, and she just shook her head really fast agreeing and laughing about it. hehe. Yuppers I have family here, and were actually about to move into an apartment, and Im about to get a car if Im lucky at the same time. So that should be fun. I hate spending money... I cant stand it but those are the things that I need right now. Were going to live right by the capital! haha. But that means that I wont be living in the country anymore and that Im going to be more aware of the ghetto... Cuz thats where it kind of is.. I cant stand that.. Now Im going to be so paranoid with the locked doors and everything. Thats a street up from where I used to live, and I have heard so many people getting killed.. The gun shots all the time and the fighting.. And on the fourth of July, that street is packed and people always get killed there. I just now realized that.. But I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU ONE HUNDRED PERCENT about getting involved with a wonderful church!!! My church used to build houses for the needy.. And I was really close to the boss and his wife that went to that church. They had really hard lives.. And thats a long story in itself to tell. But we no longer do that because hes living day to day with all of the cancerous things he has.. So I love the church... but theres nothing to do there other than to attend every sunday and wednesday. So I have NO CLUE on how to start my mission trips.. You have your own business?! What is it?! Thats so cool though! I completely agree with the mornings.. but there are those times when the sun sets in the country time, and you feel like youre back in the old days where the farms were the way of life.. Where a spirit could be free to see all it can possibly see beyond the horizens, and into their dreams of the wilderness world.. There was actually this one night that I was by myself in the quiet, and all of a sudden, the sun set over the valley making it barely shining its miraculous colors of pink and orange through my blue royal curtains.. I wrote how it was on my status on Facebook. Ill put it on here! "At this moment.. As the sun sets leaving its last light for the night, as the wind quiets into a whisper, hearing the melancholy of a whipporwill as it fades into the shadows, it leaves the most powerfully refreshing scent that follows through my window and joins the naked candle-lit fragrance leaving the air absolutely intoxicating.." It was amazing. lol. How old is your daughter.?? And Im really sorry if all of this sounds so scattered brain. But its the truth.. I have a really bad time keeping my mind on one thing and it goes to another thought.. lol. I forget a lot, so I write whatever comes to my mind at that time so I dont forget later. haha. Thats what happened after my inncident with the whole memory thing.
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Courtney Haha! How did you know that Missouri is the tornados favorite place to hang? hehe. And yes, actually, we had one touch down here a few days ago with two inches of hail. Luckily it missed our house! We live on a hill with no basement. We have a small nice house, but we would die in it if a tornado was ever to hit. And you live in North Canada?!?!?!?!?! If you do, I WANNA GO UP THERE SO BADLY AND I NEVER EVEN GET A FREAKIN CHANCE TO! It sucks.... badly.. I here the churches are amazing up there.. I was supposed to take a mission trip up there to help some kids, but I never got to because my job wouldnt allow me to.. I cried! lol. I honestly think that you will be going to your sisters hubbys churchh! I know its so weird when you get so many signs like that. It feels like Jesus is knockin on your heart, and it just flutters.! lol. And thank you for the comment on me, that really means a lot and I hope that youre right. But good news! I am feeling a little better! My asthma is still on a frenzy though. But that will take time to get over.. I waited for ya to respond last night, but I know that when I get off, Ill always recieve one! lol. Youre just like me when it comes to sleeping habbits.. I dont sleep much, and I love the night. Im not too fond on days, but today I was because it was just right. I was still cold, but warm and calm with a little sun shining down on things.. But def. not too much.. So all of the colors kind of combine together to make darker, more bold colors.. Its my favorite. haha. But other than that, I am just in love with the night, and everything in it.. I am so addicted to this site that everybody in this house is like "youre on that site again? theres really that much to do on there?" haha! I just say its a thousand times better than facebook and the hope and hapiness that I held on to so dearly that let me find that again.. Its to where I can stay close to all of my amazing friends, and esp. to God.. Its an amazing feeling and I wouldnt change that for the world!!
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O.0 Thank you for your continued prayers! No news on my grandmother yet but Ill keep everyone posted :) Thanks again!
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Courtney Ugh nevermind I found out how again.. And see..? I told you that make up can only hide so much... Im so pale and sickly looking now.. I was too tired, but I know that I needed a new pic... lol. I was tired of seeing the old ones... But I wish I could look more alive and appealing.. haha. Oh well.
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Courtney Oh theres no privacy at all when it comes to where I live or anything. lol. I dont mind!! I live in Jefferson City Missouri. The capital city of Missouri. lol. Very historical town. But I thought I replied to this earlier but it didnt show up!! I wasnt ignorin ya I promise!! I have a new random pic I took today but my phone is not wanting me to upload it on here or facebook.. sucks.. Anyway, I miss you! I feel like I havent talked to you in forever because I am so used to talking to you after a few days of it and its so amazingg!! Im really moody today because of a girls monthly curse, but its on top of my sickness so I have an excuse.. lol. I hope that you have had an amazing day, and you are WONDERFUL AT PRAYING!!! I could never ever tell that it was so hard for you.. That just means that it means SO MUCH MORE!! I look up to you tremendously.. And are you sure that you dont do very well with being outgoing when it comes to new people? You have a personality to kill and anybody would be lucky to get to know you!!! I know that everything will def. turn out right when it comes to church... I had to do that too, and now I just cant go until I get a car because I no longer have any other way to go to church, nor have I been able to go in a few years it seems like.. I know thats really bad, but as soon as I get a car which should be soon, Im going to my church that Ive went to for years! I love that church, and its mostly filled with elderly people which makes it even more glorious because they are so kind and so wise... That church is small and makes me feel like home.. Everybody is there for God and thats so hard to find.. You deserve to find a place that you can call home when it comes to a wonderful church.. And I know you will. And dont be afraid to show your true colors because theyre so bright.. You light up the day with your wonderfully kind words..
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O.0 Thank you for your prayers Christian, for my grandmother, they are most appreciated. She needs further prayer. She is now in the hospital with pneumonia :( Thanks so much and God bless you! :)
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Courtney lol about the warrior thing, no matter what it says, you two are still ALWAYS the two top warriors to me. You both always give the best advice AND amazing prayers to go along with it. I cant do that.. Idk why but Im not good at that part in public. I can only do that in private.. So I respect all of you so much more for that.. Thats an amazing talent I wish I had, but you guys take care of that for me so they can have complete comfort. I woke up because I started hurtin again and came on here to see that you posted on my wall!!!! lol. And about the other wall post, I have not been through any thing more hurtful or painful physically or mentally than anyone else.. There are so many degrees of suffering in so many different ways... You and Sarah are def. over me when it comes to bravory and standing your ground when there were only crums to stand on... I am so...so very sorry about your father and your daughter.. I never knew that, and I absolutely HATE that you had to go through that... It breaks my heart because all of you are such good people. But the best of our Fathers followers go through the most tribulant trials.. And you all stand so tall and proud.. You may not think that you do, but I depend on both of you more than... I have actually ever depended on anybody my entire life.. Its funny because I have never even met you guys in person or spend personal time with you but.. for some reason because of everything, youre so much more closer than anybody has ever been to me... Ive realized all of this recently, and it makes me feel so happy to know that I finally have that now after everything... God has truly blessed me more than I could ever imagine.. To tell you the truth, if I had a choice to be completely healthy and go through life the way someone normally would without any health problems or many trials, or have this sickness but yet have the most amazing friends/family that I could ever ask for... I would pick this in a heart beat.. This is so much more than so many people ever find.. I guess Im just that lucky.. It normally takes me years to open up to anyone, but yet, I could tell you guys stories of my life, and you actually care. That brings tears to my eyes after everything. You have to know that I am here for you guys just as much that you are here for me. And obviously you know how much that is.. lol. I love you guys and I wish that we could meet in person one day. But if that doesnt happen, I still know that Ill have the best relationships with you two than I will ever have with anyone for the rest of my life.. God works in miraculous ways, and you two are my proof of true miracles.. May God Bless you over and over again..
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Courtney I am SEVERLY LUCKY TO HAVE YOU TO TURN TO!! I depend on you more than you will ever understand. I get so excited when you and sarah leave me things! lol. I am so glad to know that you are there whenever I need someone because honestly, that is very rare for me to find. Im so happy to see that you and sarah are the two top prayer warriers!!! Im so proud!!!! lol. I love you guys so much, and would do anything for you two. I am also here whenever you need me. Im so sorry that I took so long to come back on. I never strayed away from the Lord.. I was just in too much pain. Its a little worse now, but I thank God that I have you guys to depend on now. I never EVER meant to worry any of you. That will never be my intention, but it was so nice that people did care. So no matter what, I will keep updated on everything on here from now on.. Its just so hard for me to go back and commit to all the prayers and I feel so bad.. Im just so weak right now, and can only do a little at a time... But I pray for everyone regardless. I just like to let them know that they are loved and cared for more than anything. But you and Sarah, amongst the other wonderful people that are praying for them is def. more than anyone could ask for. I am so thankful for you guys!!! I thank God I have wonderful people like you in my life that I need more than ever. Thank you so much for every single comforting word that youve ever said to me! It helps out greatly to know that someone actually cares.. I also wrote on Sarahs wall since she asked what really is wrong. I would post on yours too, but I can just do this right now.. Im really sorry.. But I am still here whenever you need me I promiseee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Courtney My Christian, I just want to thank you so much for realizing I wasnt on and giving me such encouraging words. I have been sick for quite some time now, and its getting worse. My laptop I have been using from my hubby has been broken. I have also been having a job, but I had to call in today because I got too sick to do it... Its really scaring me because I know what happens when I get like this. But I have faith.. And you.. You make me feel so welcome and needed on here!! I love knowing that I was missed by my amazing friends and of course, my closest family. I was really shocked when I came back and read my wall posts.. I was really shocked when people actually take my advice, read, and care what I say.. You have no clue how much that raises my heart.. and how much that made me smile reading your comment knowing that you actually read my advice to people.. I love you guys and I have no clue what I would do without you guys.. God has blessed me to the fullest.. You are in my heart and I love you all. You will never know how much, but at least I know that its mutual!!! =) Just remember that youre freakin amazinggg!!! And you lift my spirits as well as my heavy heart. You do so much for everyone on here. I will never forget that.! You will be in my prayers and thoughts.. always!! God bless hunn
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Sarah32 Oh Christian, I have no problems sending you the pictures! Ive been showing my niece off like crazy the past week or two, so it would be my pleasure. :) Im getting ready to go to a Joyce Meyer conference, so Ill be gone for a few days....So the pictures will probably have to wait till Sunday or Monday. Im just soooo glad I can actually go!! I havent been able to even DREAM of going to the movie theater, a restaurant, or church for about a year now. It feels like Im slowly getting small portions of my life back--- like being able to go to a Joyce Meyer conference! Im ecstatic. :) Thank you so much for all your love and prayers Christian; they mean the wold to me. Know that I dont need a prayer prompt to pop up on the screen- I pray for you on a regular basis and hope that each day brings about a healing to your spirit. :)
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Hannah Thank you for your kind prayers! I know God will bless you for all your prayers, not just to me, but to those many others.
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Sarah32 I saw on the prayer thread that you worked at a nursing home. Thats so great! What did you do there? I worked as a social worker, expecting not to like the job at all, but of course I ended up falling in love with my position and even more so- the patients.-------I just read your bio and boy Christian, I am so amazed at everything you have had to endure! There is so much power in your testimony- from being raised in staunch legalism, to feeling the hopelessness you had with your ex-wife, to now having a relationship with the only One who saw every moment of your life (both the pain and joy)--wow. Im looking forward to the many wonderful sentences youll add in the near future. :) And I too, am hoping your ex had a breakthrough with Jesus before she breathed her last breath...I think some of us will be pleasantly surprised at who we find in heaven. :)--------And I am always warmed by your words, Christian. Thank you for your wonderful encouragement. I dont think you know how much food for the soul you bring to me. And Im look over at the prayer board and your wall and see all the wonderful words God has used through you- through your pain that has surely birthed a more secure faith in Him, a joy/love/wisdom that can be expressed to others who are brokenhearted. I am so amazed to see what God is doing with your brokenness, Christian, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that every word you wrote in your bio and all the pain laden words that are personal and unwritten will never be in vain. God will continue to use you in mighty ways. Just like King David. ;)
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Sarah32 Yes, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for your prayers for my brand new niece, Harper!!! I am ecstatic at how healthy and beautiful she is....If c28 had the ability to post multiple photos, I would be showing her off on this site pronto! I know it was the prayers of the faithful like you, Christian, who made her into what she is today-- completely healthy!! Thank you. :)--------And you know, I tried copying what I was writing, then refreshing the page and pasting what I originally wrote, but it STILL wasnt going through. It was just one of those glitches. Thanks for the tech support though, Christian. ;) Im hoping it never happens again!!
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Leticia Thank you for your prayers, my brother! I am learning that prayer is so powerful and feel so blessed to know people are praying for me. God Bless you!
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martha Thank you for your prayers.
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christian  A repost to support our troops and our brother Ernie. We are asking everyone to say a prayer for the US "Darkhorse" 3rd Battalion 5th Marines and their families. They are fighting it out in Afghanistan and have lost 9 Marines in 4 days. IT WOULD BE NICE TO SEE IT ON EVERYONES PAGE...Even if its only for an hour, come on guys show your support! I am HONORED to re-post this! Thank you to ALL of "OUR" Service men and women-My Mom passed this on to me read moreand wanted to share this with you, my fellow bros and sis in Christ Jesus, amen!
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Jonathan You really took a lot of attention on my prayer request, and I am very grateful to God for that, because I know there are a lot of other people that go through situations that are rather life threatening, so I wanted to come through, and thank you for that, but then I read your bio, and now Im just like omgsh! You sir, are a true warrior! Ive never read such a testimony in life. I encourage you to stay blessed, embrace your blessings, and pray ^up^
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Aggie Thank you for praying for me, am believing God for strength and courage and light in all the paths i walk through. He promised never to leave us alone...God bless you
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Ernie Keep up the good fight Christian!-thanks for the prayers brother, I really need the support for my familys salvation, amen! Hebrews 1:3 ESVHe is the radiance of the glory of God and the exact imprint of his nature, and he upholds the universe by the word of his power. After making purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty on high, " And...Colossians 3:10 ESV And have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. And know that you are a child of the King Christian, 2 Corinthians 5:17 ESVTherefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. Jesus keep you and your daughter safe, happy and healthy, amen and amen!!-your friend in Christ Jesus, Ernie Burgoa
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Gabriella thank you so much for your wallwritings and prayers! yesterday we had a safe landing at Brussels, and now Im at home right now! thank God for the excellent trip and the safe yourney! His Name praised be high! it was really nice to read your wallwritings, thanks again!God bles syou
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Sarah32 I wanted to share something I read last night....Hopefully it will lift your spirits some and bring you even more hope, Christian. :)-----"....God selected (deliberately chose) what in the world is foolish to put the wise to shame, and what the world calls weak to put the strong to shame.....So that no mortal man should have [pretense for glorifying] and boast in the presence of God." I know I feel the same at times...weak and insignificant because of my illness....but thats exactly who God uses- the spirits that are broken and contrite before Him. Pretty cool. :) Heres a really awesome commentary on the passage: "God often works through imperfect people, or what I often call jars of clay or cracked pots. Imagine a clay pot with a lamp in it and a lid on it. Even though it may be filled with light, no one can see the light within it. Yet if the pot is cracked, the light will shine through the cracks. In the same way, God works through our imperfections. Ask Him [and He can and will] work through you in spite of your imperfection. You will be amazed at what He can accomplish through you!" -Joyce Meyer
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Sarah32 Hey Christian!! Sorry it took awhile for me to get back to you- Ive had issues with writing on peoples walls this past week.... Just one of those things! I know I told you this on your prayer thread, but Im truly hoping you had a wonderful birthday- the best yet.:) And I have to say that is so awesome you had the opportunity to see a church being built from the beginning phase!! The process of writing on the foundation sounds so beautiful. Gods words are being embedded on the walls of His house forever. Too cool. And it seems like when you feel like youre at your most desperate, when you feel so broken and without hope, those are the times when Gods Word means the most. Like it really truly is the life that it claims to be. Thats where true faith is built. Im totally believing God is with you every second of the day, Christian, when you feel the weakest Hes there to make you strong. Hes going to do something truly awesome in your situation, I just know it!!! Know that Im praying for you daily, buddy, and trusting faithfully in the God of the weakest of weak (like David and Abraham) will be the One to gradually grow you into a wonderful man of faith. :) And thank you so much for your encouraging words to me, Christian. They touched my heart deeply- to know someone cares enough to lift up my needs in prayer and to write so many encouraging words. Thank you sooo much!!! You are too awesome, my friend.:) I cannot thank you enough, Christian.
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denny Thank you, Christian....I wish I could have all you guys come to my house for a hug marathon. Again, thank you for lifting me up.
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Courtney Christian... Words cannot describe how much you have helped me... You will never know.. And that quote your paster said to you... That will never leave my heart. I will ALWAYS think of that and its so true.. It made me smile and realize what I was doing to myself.. I know you have been through this and I trust you and will listen to you about everything you have said.. You are so wonderful with advice and comforting. May God Bless you hunn.. You are amazing..
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Sarah32 Those were such sweet words; thanks Christian, for taking the time to encourage and pray for me. :) And thats my prayer too, that the treatments would bring about a wellness so that very few more would be needed!!And I know Gods going to do some pretty awesome things through you. Just think about how many people you can help through your situation! Its not pretty and its certainly not fun, but its life, and so many people are stuck in the same boat as you. And I know, the trial itself is stinky, but the closeness and growth from God is amazing. Its one of those things where youre not thankful for the circumstance itself, but you ARE thankful for some of the things that has come out of it!Take care buddy, and know that Im still praying for you- for a continued obedience to God, for strength in the times when you feel the weakest, and for God to have His way with you- completely.
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Sarah32  Im alive....just wiped out!! Thanks for the concern. :) Whenever I have an IV treatment, I generally get sick for a number days- throwing up and just feeling really rotten. But with each week I see progress. It may be a very slow progress, but hey, at least it is progress!! How are things going with you? Ive still been thinking and praying for you, Christian, so Im hoping all is going well.:)
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Sarah32 Thanks for the sweet comment, Christian....and for the continued prayer.:) It goes the same way with me- still thinking of you and praying for you and hoping you hold strong during the weak moments. You might want to check out the book "Addicted to Love: Understanding Dependencies of the Heart" (Stephen Arterburn). The author had a lot of issues himself in the area, and if I remember correctly he had a long-term affair with a married woman, yet turned his life around and is now happily married and a counselor.Anyway- its a great book thats helped changed my perspective for the better on people addictions. I keep giving it away, so I really need to buy a copy myself!
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Gabriella thank you for your prayer! ill still pray for you too! God bless you brother~!
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christian  I think you are a very blessed young lady and I applaud all your efforts and commitments. Hang in there and Glod bless you as well :)
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Sarah32 Glad the words were of some comfort, Christian.:) And thank you so much for your prayer for me....Its GREATLY appreciated!! Im still continuing to pray for you and rooting for you throughout this tough process.
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christian Thank you Sarah. My prayers for you will continue daily! God bless!!
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Courtney Hey there hunn.. I know youre going through a really hard time and its splitting you in two.. If it helps.. I had to lose my BEST friend that I have all of my childhood memories with for 10 years... No matter how I tried helping or wanted our friendship, I had to fall back.. But hey.. You know what? God NEVER EVER closes ANY window without opening another new and spetacular one for OUR paths to Him.. And you are never alone.. I get that she is your best friend that you ever had.. but you do have us here.. You def. have me to talk to anytime you need to. Believe it or not, but you are so strong.. You know why? Even when you feel your weakest.. like youve been knocked down hard by life, you come to this site.. And you ask for prayers and you ask for our help. Thats so hard to do and people dont realize that. We are your family and we love you. God would never leave you alone hunn.. Never.
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christian Thank you so very much Courtney for your wonderful words and your big heart. It is very tough going 5 days now without a word or an email. I have asked for strength and everytime I feel that I should talk or email, I have had a sign that tells me; not now, this isnt the time. So far I have been able to listen and when things really get tough, I turn to this site and people like you! I thank God for you and I know his blessings are with you. Just remember that this works both ways, and if you need an ear or a prayer (although you are already receiving those) dont hesitate to ask.. Thank you for your friendship!!!!
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LiveLifeToTheFullest "I know the plans I have for you", says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremaih 29:11. There is hope and God has a plan for you but He is a God of truth and honesty. Stay strong and know that He is already guiding You away from this. Begin to read the Word and put God in the center and He will show you what to do.
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christian Yesterday we decided that the guilt and burden of this relationship is to much for either of us to handle. If we are to be together, then we would like for it to be in the right way;not the wrong. We have been here before. I ask for the strength to carry on with following the right path and once again laying my problems in Christs hands. I ask for the faith to not pick these up again and try to handle things myself as I have done many times before, but to trust in the lord! All who can, please pray for me as I journey into the unknown.
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Linda  Christian thank you for your prayers and support there seem on end in sight for Richard I am glad that your daughter is a lot better I will keep praying and have tried everything I can think of to help Richard but it seems like he does not want my help bless you Linda
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Hey Everyone. I want you guys to pray for Courtney (that prays for all of us on this site). I have not heard from her a a few days and am very worried for her health and well-being.You are my lamp, O Lord; the Lord turnsmy darkness into light. ( 2 Samuel 22:29 *NIV ) God Bless..........
posted 2 Years Ago | pray for my prayer request
Hey everyone, I need some prayers for.lets just say through circumstances that I have put myself in, this person in a round about way is in my life. I have strong emotions against who he is as a person, but know that the Lord teaches us that we are all brothers and sisters and that we should love our neighbors. He has recently admitted that he has been contemplating suicide. I know that he does not care to have me pray for him; though I will anyway. I can not blame him for this. I would ask that everyone please pray that these thoughts are removed from his mind and that he will attend counseling that has been arranged for him. He is not a person that feels secure in sharing his emotions, so this will be a very difficult task for him to accomplish Thank you and God bless!
posted 2 Years Ago | pray for my prayer request
Hey everyone. My prayer today is for each one of you to pray for and to thank, the other people on this prayer board. You guys have become my strength. The struggles we all are going through and the wonderful people on this board that are willing to pray for each other is amazing! Today I was struggling with life and I could not seem to get a hold on my despair, so I turned here to pray for others and to try and serve you guys the best I could. In turn I was blessed by the compassion being shown here!!!! I thank God for each and every one of you and I pray with all of my heart that you guys will follow his will and be strong in your faith and service to him. Today is my Birthday and my only wish is that all of you accept my prayers and blessings!!!! Bless you all..........
posted 2 Years Ago | pray for my prayer request
My earlier prayer request has lead me to this one. I am currently completely away from the situation with my married friend. We decided to part. At this time I need prayers for strength to follow the right path and to leave the situation in Gods hands. I have a tendency to pick-up my problems and try and solve them myself, so please pray that I remain strong in my faith, knowing that my path has been chosen for me already and that I have the forsight to follow the direction my Lord wants me to. Please.....I need strength!!!
posted 2 Years Ago | pray for my prayer request
I am in love with a married woman, and she with me. We have already sinned, but have backed off from our feelings for the sake of our souls. She would like to be out of her marriage, but satys in a emotionally abusive relationship for the sake of her children and also feels that divorce will cause her sins to be worse. We have been on this rollercoaster for 3 years. We both want to be with each other, but not at the price of the childrens happiness or our eternal souls. Please help.............
posted 2 Years Ago | pray for my prayer request
Thanks everyone that prayed for me. I had a great meeting with my mentor and though I have a long tough journey ahead of me, I feel a renewed strength to march forward with our Lord. God Bless you all......
Original Prayer Request (posted 2 Years Ago):
I have a very important meeting with my spiritual mentor this morning, Please pray that I am able to express myself correctly; give me the courage to admit these sins that I carry around with me, so that I am able to move forward and closer to Christ. I also ask for the strength and ability to heed his advice. Thank you and God bless..
Hey everyone. The good Lord has heard your prayers. My friends daughter is out of the Hospital and at home. They seemed to have the low blood flow to the baby straightened out, but the baby will most likely be a pre-me. Continue your prayers for no more complications and I thank each and every one of you for all you do. Bod Bless!!!
Original Prayer Request (posted 2 Years Ago):
Hey everyone, please pray for a friend of mines daughter who is 5 months pregnant and in the hospital right now because the baby is not getting enough blood supply and is also under weight. Her daughters name is Shaneice Sombers.
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