Im still waiting for the miracle of a new job to come, and the ability to buy a newer truck, and start my family, I have a ring that I cant give until I get things straightened out, I am trying so hard to get it together, and needing a truck and a better closer job to home, I need Gods help to get this straightened out, its taking a toll on my depression as well, I am watching everyone get what I have prayed so long for, I need my break to get a nice life started for me . Please Pray, Ive hit the wall.
I am in a situation where me and my Fiance both got jobs that we worked hard to get, problem is, my "dream job" isnt what I exopected or is it really what I want, I am really hurt over the fact that another let down occured, she is doing fine with her job, and seems to get the good life given to her on a silver platter, while I struggle to live another day. I battle deep depression that not even medication can control, and the only thing that eases the pain and thoughts is her. I desperately want to create a good life for us, but cannot do it, without a job I can be happy and not hate myself going to daily, and I need to be able to give us a good life, not perfect, but good, I need some help from God to get things moving and get them right, I know hes there but I do not feel he is listening to me, I prayed non stop for days but no response and no answer and things are only getting worse as my car is failing and I watch everyone get what I pray for, I need somthing to fall my way, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!